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title: "Cruel machinations spring to life, and lessons are learnt"
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date: 2018-01-07
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In the past week, I’ve been soundly reminded that the Universe is a cruel mistress.
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I’ve realised that some people I call/called friends perhaps aren’t as reliable as I first thought. Being ditched on NYE being the pinnacle example of this.
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I’ve lost a relationship in which I saw great potential.
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Further to that, the realisation I don’t have anyone to talk to. As in to *really talk to*[1] — have in depth conversations/philosophical musings with. Apart from [Where Angels Fear,](https://medium.com/u/6c8bcd0d1a65) [2] who might be surprised at how large a role he’s played in keeping me (in)sane recently.
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I just had to bump start my bike because the battery died. Let me tell you, pushing 150kgs of chrome and steel up and down a carpark is no fun![3]
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Sure, my life could be better. Way better. I’m craving physical contact in any form, and mentally drained.
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But even still, I can say with a straight face, ‘Life’s okay’. Maybe even ‘Life’s good’. Just as I’ve made many mistakes, and had many misfortunes over the past week, I’ve learnt many lessons.
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The opportunity to learn adds a positive twist to the darkest of days.
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I’ve learnt how to forgive, and also that I should be less forgiving.
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I’ve learnt to ‘trust but verify’.
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I’ve learnt that perhaps I need to reestablish old friendships, or seek completely new ones.
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I don’t write this seeking pity, empathy or any such thing. I write this as a reminder that **some lessons can only be learnt in a storm**.
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[1] God I **hate **small talk
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[2] He also gave me the idea for this footnote system, to which I am taking with gusto. Love me some brackets or hyphens, but sometimes footnotes are smoother.
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[3] It did start eventually, though, else I might not have been able to write this on time. As it is, its going to be close.
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