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title: "There are some, I just gotta sit down and dig through them at some point."
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date: 2018-01-05
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> the kernel of an ideaThere are some, I just gotta sit down and dig through them at some point. Got enough sitting in my draft queue as it is though!
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Yeah, remixing, that’s the stuff. After all, nothing’s original — everything is a remix whether consciously or otherwise.
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> Well, that’s *it* now — now that you’ve said that, it’s *inevitably* gonna happen, *isn’t* it?Bugger.
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> It’s disconcerting, I’ll give you that ; PIsn’t it just. Strangely comforting to know that I’m not alone in my particular madness, though.
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> Yeah … my passengers didn’t so much thoughI can imagine not. All the fear, none of the fun of being the one with the pedal to the metal!
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> I was his best option for a *blameless* dereliction of dutyAh. You know, right up until recently I would have automatically disagreed on the ‘dereliction of duty’ point. But being currently in the middle of trying to support a close friend who just lost her boyfriend of several years to debt/drug addiction suicide I’m less sure. Something about the idea of it being selfish still doesn’t quite sit right with me though. I can’t phrase it yet.
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> I really was putting a lot of people’s lives at risk entirely unnecessarilyS’pose that’s the thing about a bike, you’re *mostly *only a danger to yourself.
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> that protection won’t do you much good in a head-on collision with a Belgian 18-wheeler at 140mphWell no, but I’m not sure you’d be much better off anything short of a tank at that point!
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> I take calculated risksDepends how you’re doing the calculations, I suppose!
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But in principle agreed, insane is too strong a word.
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> Not needing to recover in the first place is, however, masterful — I salute you.Not so fast — while I recognise the problem and half of me recoils from it — the other half *really* wants a **much **bigger bike.
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I have a feeling I know which half will win.
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> Also, it means I get to pretend that I’m in control and could give up any time I wanted to — so it’s alright … not a problem … leave me alone about it.I certainly won’t get on your back about it, since I have the exact same *not*-problem.
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> Adrenaline Junkie’s versionKeep working on it, because I’d wear it like a badge of honour. A rather battered badge, likely with a couple bulletholes, but nevertheless…
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> I did trust my pilot completely and felt that it was perfectly safe to dress that way as a result.There’s only *so *defensive it is possible to ride. Plus past a certain point defensiveness sucks all the fun out. But my point is your pilot ain’t the problem, its the *other *crazies on the roads that are the issue.
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Plus I *love *the look of leathers. Particularly with a pretty woman in them, but wearing them gets (trailing) second best. Need to get a jacket to match the rest of my gear, my current one is textile and while well armoured it just doesn’t have the appeal of leather.
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> I corrected it from ‘fun’ to ‘exciting’ afterwards — the difference is subtle but significant.That does make a significance difference. Positive, vs adrenaline filled. Reluctantly, I concede that not *everything *needs to be risky/dangerous/stupid to be worth doing.
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> You won’t listen anyway, but at least I feel like I did the right thing by saying it and can sleep easier for it : DWell I won’t listen *fully*, but it has been *heard*, and has reinforced an often silenced inner voice trying to temper my hunger for the next kick.
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> Stunt-rider?Damnit why do I feel the desire to do that, I’m enough of a danger to myself with two wheels on the road. Let alone one or none!
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> But overall, I suppose, no, I can’t complain of having been bored — I‘ve done some interesting stuff in interesting places with interesting people.I’m still on the fence as to if a negative experience is better than none at all. I’m leaning towards it being so, because even the worst experience provides a learning opportunity.
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I try to make ‘better to live with regret than regret not having lived’ my motto. Time’s so precious doing nothing-at-all just seems like a waste.
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But yes, perhaps there’s nothing wrong with toning down the risk just a bit. Of course, its one thing to talk about it, and one thing to actually try to wean yourself off it.
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> I guess I’ll see what the second half brings soon enough : DI’d wish you good fortune, but you don’t appear to need it. I too am excited for where I might go next.
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I’d say it can’t get much worse than what I’ve already been through but I feel like I really would get the attention of Universe then.
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Wait…Oh.
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Oh. Bugger.
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