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+date = "2018-06-04"
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+title = "Instant Gratification Obsession"
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+#### Or is it?
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+I have a bit of a reputation for near instant replies. It’s another of the double edged swords that besides Perfectly Awful Timing provides the cornerstone to my ‘brand’ for want of a better word.
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+Fast replies demonstrate ‘I have nothing better to do’. And that can certainly be a good or a bad thing…
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+To a degree it is because I have nothing better to do. But I’m not obsessed with my phone in the same way others might be.
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+It’s not the dopamine rush of notifications I crave, at least not exactly.
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+I think it’s more that I have a craving for connection.
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+Text is a bad mimic of real conversation. Real time replies are the basis of verbal communication… And yet are somehow sometimes frowned upon in text.
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+I hate small talk. Always have always will. I’d much rather open with ‘How is your heart’ than ‘How are you’. Comes across a bit intense in text, though.
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+Checking in often is something I’ve been working on in the hopes it will be returned. So far it hasn’t exactly worked.
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+Anyway, looping back to the original track…
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+My unnaturally quick speed of response leads me to subconsciously expect the same from the other person.
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+Fine in real conversation.
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+Toxic when applied to texting.
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+I’m working on it.
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