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+#### Or is it?
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+I have a bit of a reputation for near instant replies. It’s another of the double edged swords that besides Perfectly Awful Timing provides the cornerstone to my ‘brand’ for want of a better word.
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+Fast replies demonstrate ‘I have nothing better to do’. And that can certainly be a good or a bad thing…
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+To a degree it is because I have nothing better to do. But I’m not obsessed with my phone in the same way others might be.
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+It’s not the dopamine rush of notifications I crave, at least not exactly.
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+I think it’s more that I have a craving for connection.
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+Text is a bad mimic of real conversation. Real time replies are the basis of verbal communication… And yet are somehow sometimes frowned upon in text.
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+I hate small talk. Always have always will. I’d much rather open with ‘How is your heart’ than ‘How are you’. Comes across a bit intense in text, though.
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+Checking in often is something I’ve been working on in the hopes it will be returned. So far it hasn’t exactly worked.
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+Anyway, looping back to the original track…
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+My unnaturally quick speed of response leads me to subconsciously expect the same from the other person.
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+Fine in real conversation.
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+Toxic when applied to texting.
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+I’m working on it.
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+date = "2018-06-25"
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+title = "Rock ’n’ Mother Fucking Roll"
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+I love Rock’n’Roll. I love its its younger darker sibling Heavy Metal. I am something of a closeted metalhead. No longer!
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+> It ain’t real music without guitar — Hey Ho, Hinder
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+From a ‘pure music’ standpoint, I love the guitar riffs and frantic drumlines. I have a particular soft spot for female vocalists (Halestorm, In This Moment) for the contrast they provide to the heavy instrumental.
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+> Shove your kiss straight through my chest — In This Moment
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+From an entertainment perspective there’s nothing more wild than a metal concert. The energy of everyone involved is off the charts. The gratuitous pyrotechnics are just the icing on the cake.
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+But it’s not about the actual *music*. Music never is, is it?
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+It’s about the meaning behind the sound. The lyrics most obviously, but also the ‘shape of the song’.[1] Rock speaks to my soul.
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+> Life’s too short to run it like a race. So it’s never gonna matter if you win first place — special, Shinedown
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+I find aggressive music weirdly uplifting. Dark songs can lift me into a good mood and keep me there. It doesn’t make sense, but *neither do I*.
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+> We won’t surrender  
+> Till we get what we’re lookin’ for — Daughters of Darkness, Halestorm
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+Anyway. Let me loop back to the concert point for a minute.
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+Metalheads are *nice people*.
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+Obviously, not *all* of them[2]. Every group has its own fair share of arseholes. But for the most part metalheads are just…chill. After all, you can never understand the idea of ‘friendly violence’ until you’ve witnessed — or indeed joined — a mosh pit. If nothing else they’re[3] certainly the least judgemental crowd I’ve found.
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+My point being rockers understand music more than most. They understand the power it holds. The power to bring people together.
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+Seas of raised horns are evidence enough for that.
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+Rock sees no race, no religion, no colour, no creed. Just humans.
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+Humans *rockin’ out*. I don’t know about you, but I think this world could use a bit[4] more humanity. If that happens to come wrapped in epic shredding? All the bloody *better*!
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+[1] Look, I don’t know. It makes sense in my head, okay :c
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+[2] us
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+[3] *we’re*
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+[4]*fuckton
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