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#### Wanderings of a currently diffuse consciousness

To paraphrase [Where Angels Fear](https://medium.com/u/6c8bcd0d1a65)[^1]\: ‘I don’t get the hype over multitasking - you mean there are people who *don’t* think about ten things at once?’

My mind is exactly the same. I never stop thinking. About everything and nothing and all in between. And sometimes it feels like I’m thinking about it all at once.

The way I think is naturally reflected in life. I am, by nature, a jack of all trades and master of none. A butterfly, always seeking new things. Sometimes even returning to them.

And so like many things in my life — and in Life at large — it is a blessing and a curse.[^4]\: Beside my butterfly nature, getting my brain to shut down is always a fight.

Sometimes a fight I lose. Occasionally bordering on often I get hit with an idea that has to get out or it will dissolve. Like this article.

How I think is something I plan to explore in more depth in the near future. But it’s not the point of this article…

For someone used to thinking about a thousand things at once…

For someone used to an incessant background clamour of ideas…

For someone used to the inescapable company of their own mind and its myriad facets…

**Thinking about *only one thing* is (near enough literally) *mind-blowing.***

For a ten track mind, the opportunity to enjoy the nuance of just one song — less the infuriating interference of the others played simultaneously — is unmissable.

It is dangerous, too. The relative peace of a solitary focus becomes addictive.

Though that’s not dangerous, not inherently.

The danger lies in wait where that focus isn’t something but some*one*.

It by nature encourages you to become dependent on that someone who is more than someone. Both mind and heart. Splits you wide. Vulnerable.

On that note, I am interested as to if WAF had the same or similar experience with *Her*. Or maybe it is just me…

[^1]: I commit paraphrasing only since he is so productive[^2] that I can’t for the life of me find where he mentioned it…

[^2]: I’m not sure if productive is the right word[^3] Maybe prolific… perhaps *excessive*

[^3]: I actually get the feeling WAF might be quite *offended* by it!

[^4]: A blessing and a curse is a double edged sword, and a great deal of swords are indeed double edged…I find that poetic though it may just be me being too clever by half