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title:	"Yes, and as such, I count myself fortunate to have had such an experience as early in life as I…"
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> It was truly a mind-altering, reality-shaking experience.Yes, and as such, I count myself fortunate to have had such an experience as early in life as I have. It’s been the major driver in my introspection on how (and indeed why) I approach relationships and has uncovered some considerable flaws on my part (most notably my codependency tendencies, for want of a better phrase) that I am glad of the opportunity to work on.

Silver linings and that.


> we (eventually) were able to repair all of the damageHmm. Now I wonder if it would be possible to do the same — while we were toxic for each other as lovers, we were quite good friends. I fear it might be too late — and indeed, that she may not be willing. But I could try…

It still has the potential to go badly wrong — and may indeed be too late — but it’s something that I will seriously consider. Thank you for that nudge. (Regardless of results)


> In my case, I got caught up in the process of her realizing that she was, in fact, lesbian.Ouch. Not really something you want to take credit for, hmm?

(Apologies if my humour is misplaced, or indeed…just *not funny*)


> And it nearly cost me my life.Same here. Nearly cost me my sanity and happiness in the bargain.

I’m *still *dealing with its catastrophic effect on my ability to trust. But that’s more a part of the ‘false faces thing’, which for you was a different relationship entirely.


> DO NOT IGNORE RED FLAGS!!!‘Nuf said.