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> “Little particles of inspiration sleet through the universe all the time traveling through the densest matter in the same way that a neutrino passes through a candyfloss haystack, and most of them miss.”Terry Pratchett, Sourcery
Most of them never find the right target.
The human mind possesses an overwhelming capacity for creativity that continually overwhelms me. Society, science, technology….humanity…has advanced in directions that were previously unimaginable, nevermind thought impossible. And no doubt it will continue to do so.
You might be tempted to say the various revolutions in the way we live are lives (were in the midst of one now!) are the product of a few outstanding thinkers. Superhumans, almost. Maybe. Maybe there are only a few right people that happened to be in the right place at the right time.
I dont think so.
Everyone is a creative. Humanitys greatest strength is imagination, be it applied to science or art.
However, human society currently isnt conducive to that.
> “I am, somehow, less interested in the weight and convolutions of Einsteins brain than in the near certainty that people of equal talent have lived and died in cotton fields and sweatshops.” ― Stephen Jay Gould
I believe people having to work to survive is criminal. Its one of the reasons I support Universal Basic Income. What if people were freed from having to go to jobs they probably hate just to be able to survive…to be able to keep working? What if this insane cycle was broken, via automation or otherwise? What then?
If it were ever allowed to happen, maybe itd lead to people not knowing what to do with the time theyd suddenly been granted. But I dont think so.
Life is too short. Too short to experience the world. Too short to create out of those experiences. I think a world freed from the 40+ hour work week would be a happier one. An infinitely more creative one too. Who knows where we (humanity) might go, if we all just had the chance to think about things once in a while.
My inner cynic demands I add a caveat here. In all of the above, think is operative. Im optimistically speculating. The vision of society I just outlined is highly utopian. But the automation revolution is looking promising. And it has the potential to completely change the way we think about jobs, and with it the face of society.
When inspiration hits, grab it with both hands. Spend your time wisely, for it is limited and irreplaceable. **Create. *Live.***

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title = "“The best way out is always through. Angels got their halos walking through the fires of hell”"
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Those are the words of someone who shattered my trust. And yet I still repeat those words like a mantra.
Despite all she took from me, she gave me those words. Those words of power. Perhaps they were even worth all the pain. Perhaps. Because they are so fundamentally true. The only answer, when life sucks, is *keep going*.
> “If youre *going through hell*, keep going.” — *Winston Churchill*
Churchill said it first, of course. But I prefer the Angels version. Not just because of the special meaning it holds to me, but for the extra emotional punch.
Imagine an angel.
A flawless angel beaten down by the fires of hell. Pristine white robe torn and charred, ragged edge trailing in the ashes. The faintest flicker of a halo of flame glimmering in the hazy air above her waterfall of spun-gold hair.
White dove feathers of her wings burning merrily. Burning, yet remaining intact. Soft down transformed into blazing flame. Wings of fire. Wings of a phoenix.
Imagine an angel walking through hell, reborn in the fire.
Perhaps she chose her path. Likely, Life chose it for her in an absent minded toss of the dice.
What she always has the choice in, however, is to keep going. Step after step, despite the fire.
Take the path. Walk through the fire. Emerge as a phoenix.
If fire still licks around you, rememberjust *keep going.* You cannot go backand to stop would invite the flame to consume you.
<sup>*If only I were better at listening to what I preach…*</sup>

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Even the above statement is not original. (No, really…youll see…)
All writers are influenced by what we read, whether conscious or unconscious. For example, my writing style takes several cues from Terry Pratchett, sometimes very deliberately.[^1] And there are no doubt countless unconscious influences feeding into my life in ways I dont even realise.
So in that sense I am in no way original. But in that same sense, it doesnt **matter**.
Stealings no good.[^2] But remixing ishas always been, will always *be*the foundation of creativity.
Creativity is naturally cyclical. Readers write, and writers read. After all, there are only three[^5] plots.
Its not just writing. Everyone is influenced by everything. Our imagination isnt entirely our ownall media that we consume, all experiences that we have, every last thing that we seegets thrown into one pot. Much like a baking recipe, the blend is original although the ingredients are not.
Accepting the art of the remix is the first step on the journey to finding a voice**YOUR** **voice**. Your personal experience (original by nature) will blend into everything else that shapes us as people, all those influences known and unknown.
And thats as original as it gets.
So its a poorly kept secret my drafts section is overflowing. This is one more of those drafts finally being shoved out into the world. My original title was thus:
![](1*Y6Sd0_RYfJ1GYeszDo8ZbQ.png)
Then Medium dropped this on me:
[**Dont Worry About Being OriginalEverythings a Remix**
*One of the biggest limiting beliefs I run into when talking to aspiring writers or creators is that they dont have…* medium.com](https://medium.com/personal-growth/dont-worry-about-being-original-everything-s-a-remix-6fbb06ab1683 "https://medium.com/personal-growth/dont-worry-about-being-original-everything-s-a-remix-6fbb06ab1683")[](https://medium.com/personal-growth/dont-worry-about-being-original-everything-s-a-remix-6fbb06ab1683)
And here we stand. The same sentiment, much of the same words. Classic example of case-in-point, in a meta sense. Pleasingly neat, actually.
[^1]: Footnotes being just one recently rediscovered example
[^2]: Unless youre Robin Hood[^3]
[^3]: Sidenote[^4]: is a rhyme split across a sentence and its footnote still a rhyme?
[^4]: Footnote, sidenote…notes aplenty…Dear oh dear.
[^5]: Replace three with *x* sub infinite number as appropriate. Doesnt change the sentiment.

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#### Quoted By The Goat
#### Matchbox Quotes Day 49 [20180226]
> Igniting a duel of hearts

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I havent found my voice. I have, however, found *more of* it.
I dont often look back at my previous work. Partly because when I do all I see is flaws[1] but also because my views have changed so much. For a variety of reasons[4], my world has opened up in the past couple years.
Its more than that, though. My eyes havent just opened, so has my mouth. Ive found a voice I never knew I had. Because now that Ive found it I know that Ive always had it. Buried, somewhere.
Im still finding it. My writing style is evolving with every piece I write. Most recently and most prominently is my mild-major obsession with footnotes. But also a half-conscious attempt to use less needlessly complex vocabulary.[5] After all, it is no good saying something if you cant be understood…
Medium has been a vital catalyst for that change, and I hope it continues to do so. And maybe one of these days Ill get back to working on my novel[6]
The point of my waxing lyrical about beginning to find my voice?
An attempt to inspire you to do the same.
Many of you here on Medium have already done so.
But just as many, if not more, are just like me. In the process of finding their voice.[7]
My voice which is mine and mine alone.
Their voice that is theirs and theirs alone.
Your voice which is yours alone.
Speak out. Speak your mind. Nobody else will, because nobody else **can**.
[1] This seems endemic to creative types[2] I wonder if there is a name for it…[3]
[2] Hell, I still feel awkward labeling myself a creative type and only do so because it seems technically correct. That and Im increasingly discovering Im not as much logic type as previously thought.
[3] Being Human, maybe…
[4] A long and winding tale, filled with intrigue and deception. Glammed up and rammed into a sci-fi setting I could almost see myself writing it into a novel…I truly have been cursed to live in interesting times!
[5] And just generally trying to take writing (and Life) just a little less bloody seriously!
[6] That thing is perhaps the epitome of my changing voicereading beginning to end is also reading chronologically across two years of my evolving style. Quite a ride…hence the heavy editing required!
[7] Maybe we all are, always. Maybe those that look to me like theyve found their voice have just honed the craft of finding it.

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Many people love the summer. Its heat and relaxation.
Im not one of them. The heat melts my brain thoroughly. I find myself unable to think, let alone do. Which is all well and good on holiday, but otherwise a pain. And *dear* *god* the hayfever from all of these goddamn plants. Cluttering up the place looking pretty and producing lifegiving oxygen…how dare they!
Some people love winter. Crisp cold, and crisper snow.
Im not one of them. As someone who is not a patient travellerif I have a destination in mind I like to be there quickly[1]snow is irritating to infuriating. Plus it stops me from getting astride my motorcycle, and anything that does that *cannot* be good.
And the cold. The cold seeps into my bones and I feel like Im never warm all winter long.[2]
So sod summer. And sod winter.
Heres to the twilight times. The springs, and the autumns.
Spring is the thawing of the world. Fields of green rising from the frozen waste, phoenix-like.
Autumn is the herald of winter. And herald it does, with sharp fireblossom colours of dying leaves that so sharply contrast the bleak white snows to come.
Unlike Winter and Summer, Spring and Autumn have more in common than not. They are the blurred lines. A fading transition drawn out over months. Between Cold Dark and Bright Fire.
Best of all, they dont overstay their welcome.
[1] If I dont, thats another matter entirely. Not all who wander are lost.
[2] This may have something to do with having not heating at home for the past several years. Why? Because it isnt quite cold enough for it to really *need[3] *to be fixed. Certainly cold enough to make me damn grumpy, though!
[3] Need as in…if you dont fix it youre going to actually *freeze*

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Ive mused before about my irreconcilable dual philosophy. The part of me that inspires the Neither do I in my bio [Ed. Note 2021: Bio previously read 'Adrenaline Junkie afraid to die. Doesn't make sense? Neither do I!']its not just there for the rhyme!
In the shower[1] just now it hit me what that is.
Its a Jekyll and Hyde philosophy.
Sometimes, I attempt optimism with earnest. I see the world for what it *could be*, rather than the twisted anarchy that it is. And I am fired to fight towards that. My philosophy in these times is all-encompassing, laid back and non-judgmental. I believetruly believein a Utopian future.[2]
Thats my Jekyll philosophy. One of the best intentions.[3]
Then, I inevitably remember (or am reminded) [*Life is Shit*](https://medium.com/@WhereAngelsFearToTread/rainbows-lollipops-and-sunshine-498cdad1e3f).
This is the spiteful, cynical, middle finger to the universe side of my splintered worldview. Where I see that its a goddamn miracle the human race hasnt obliterated itself *already *and were all living on borrowed time. A philosophy that is malevolent and selfish. Shit sucks and all we can do is make the best of it.
But it also brings an angera futile rage against the universe that doesnt give a shit. And a justified rage against The Powers That Be which dont give a shit *either.[4]*
Thats my Hyde philosophy. One of sometimes-righteous anger but shot through with wide cracks of black malice.
And so I am. And so I am torn.
Trapped and torn between two inconceivably opposed world views. Thinking one thing one moment, and the opposite the next. It is confusing and infuriating.
So I half hope that one side eventually wins this impossible war.
Though if that were to happen, I dont know which side would win.
I dont know which side Id *want* to win, either.
[1] Why is it always the shower? I guess because its the only high-daydream activity we do regularly and consistently…
[2] Equality [Ed. Note 2021: Nope. Meant equity!] for all and all that wonderful bollox.
[3] For all the good that intentions are…
[4] And anger is a veritable powerplant of energy, creative and otherwise. If it was good enough for Terry Pratchett, it is more than good enough for me.

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we fell too hard too fast
shattered too finely
an exquisite fracturing

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Ive been doing a lot (a whole lot!) of self reflection lately. Its probably *reflected*Hah! (Sorry[^1])in my writings.
Im trying to figure out *who I am*. And [*what I* ***do***](https://medium.com/@WhereAngelsFearToTread/obviously-im-biased-but-80778a2de71e). Big questions. But ones I want answers to.
Not least because of the series of relationship explosions Ive undergone recently. In particular Im trying to identify and neutralise toxic behaviours I either already had or developed in those relationships.
Im pretty sure Im badly codependent. Which needs to change. I also have a major tendency to jump ahead of myself when I should be rolling with the punches.[^2] But I dont know exactly how. Which loops quite neatly to the title.
Ive been looking inward. Balancing it with looking outward. Trying to let a *little* more positivity bleed into the darkness.[^3]
Trying really damn hard to be more mindful, more grateful.
All of that is good. But is it enough? Can I do thiswhatever *this* isalone?
I dont know. Which is another thing Im working at being better atadmitting when Im wrong or dont know. Which is a lot of the time when *this* is involved.
I guess Im just trying to be a better person. Something I should be able to manage alone. In theory. I dont know.
[^1]: Im not.
[^2]: I dont mean that inherently negatively as it implies. *Going with the flow *just isnt violent enough for me. On second thoughts maybe I *do*.
[^3]: Sometimes.

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Labels are great. They help organise things, like files. They underpin organisation and sorting systems. Categorisation.
Labels get tricky when applied to things that defy categorisation. People.
On the one hand, labeling people is super handy. Provided that the label is accurateand the only way to guarantee that is if it is self applied. For example I label myself a gearhead because its a convenient way to convey an area of my interests.
Labels help like minded people find each other. Help communities form. They are used to convey, in some small way, who we are. A bio with a bunch of labels tells much more - after all a label is just a certain kind of symbol.
Labels help. But only when they are not used to reinforce the oh so pervasive Us vs Them mentality.
You cant sort people by labels, even those theyve proudly stuck on themselves.
Recognising that people are different and categorising them are worlds apart. Because one depends on seeing the person first, and the other the labels first.
I see people, not tags.
As far as luck goes Ive got a pretty good lot. And Im trying to be mindful enough to be grateful for it.
But gratitude wont do. I am trying to become an Ally to those less fortunate. Im still working on being better at itbut thats Life,I suppose.
On a separate but related note as it were, I have a new label for myself.
I am hetroflexible. Maybe even bi. [Ed. note 2021: Pan, these days! 🏳️‍🌈] The truth is Im not quite sure.
Confused feels like the most valid label, but Im concerned that it would be interpreted as making light of a serious issue. For want of a better word. Anyway!
Am I leveraging that declaration to make a point? Yes, a little bit. Is it justified? I think so.
Because my point is thus:
Us. Never *Them*. Remember the person.
With one exception. Which I suppose is the real double bladed part of the philosophy. Almost hypocritical. But you should be used to that by now.
Anyway. The exception. Those that wield labels like weapons. See themselves as better than anyone else. To them I say…
**Fuck Off**

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Authors' note: I reckons that should say “Trust your gut, cuddle a cat and slam tequila” But that wasnt on Unsplash…
Three years ago, I never would have thought that I could write a novel. Let alone write on in **thirty days**.
Thats right, its almost that time of year again! November is fast becoming one of my favourite monthsnot just because of Halloween and the fireworks, but the novelling. This year Ive been particularly fierce in my quest to get people to join me on the mad journeyand have been met with reasonable success. This is another slab in that road.
#### An impossible goal
Pick something. Anything at all really. But preferably something completely insane.
Something so far out your comfort zone it makes your heartbeat spike slightly just considering it.
Forget exposure therapy, this is *shock* *therapy*
There is only one way to truly prove to yourself you are capable of your dreams, and that is to do the impossible. Like, for examplewriting 50,000 words in a month.
Thats 1667 words a day. For a whole month. Which to somenay mostof you probably sounds like a lot. To me? Doesnt sound like much. Because Ive *done it*. Got the T shirt.²
**Showing up**
The most difficult part of doing the impossible is not startingbut finishing. And finishing entails making steps towards that deliberately far off goal *every damn day*.
1667 words a day is pretty easy. Sorry³, but it is. Its repeating that *pretty easy *1667 words every day for thirty days straight thats hard. And it is *hard*. Showing up every day and writing a couple words is hard, let alone the best part of two thousand.
Its hard, but it is not impossible. 50,000 words in a month is impossible (or *sounds it*) but 1667 words a day for thirty days? That sounds a lot more manageable, doesnt it?
So show up. Thats all the secret there is, to writingand to doing anything else *im*possible.
**Victory**
If you commit to your goal, if you grind away at it every day for as long as it takes, you will succeed. I cant tell you the secrets of how exactly to do thatbecause truth be told I dont have a *damn clue* just yetbut I can promise you success if you do.
Sure, talent helps. But it is a crutch, not a spine.
Perseverance is a solid foundation on which to build anything. Anything at all, including the impossible. Figure that out, in whatever way works for youand *you* can write a novel in a month.
Do enough impossible things, and youll begin to believe that they arent so impossible. That there is no such thing *as* impossible.⁴
Thats all there is to it. There is no secret sauce, and anyone who tries to sell you any can fuck off. The way to do things is just to *do *them. Sounds stupid when written like that maybebut thats all perseverance really means.
Its how I wrote a novel in a month, and it is how **you** can too. Or anything else insane you can set your mind to.
Do enough impossible things and you will be invincible. Simple.⁵
¹ Not the electrical kind, unless you have *really* odd aspirations…
² Well no, I didnt actually. Because Im a cheap bastard…
³ Am I ever.
⁴ Bar, obviously, things that are impossible in physics etc. Im talking about things that *seem *impossible to our minds and calling them such for effect. Obviously.
⁵ That is what I promised you after all, isnt it? How to be invincible? And if you can do the impossible, then you must be invincible…right?⁶
⁶ Dont tell me you were actually looking for *immortality.* Because if you were, fuck *right* off.⁷ You *actually thought* Id publish the secret to that on *Medium*, for *free*?! Hah.
⁷ But come right back if you find it somewhere else. *Please?*

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